today

A few weeks ago, as I sat with the Lord, he gave me a phrase – “Run with Me!”

I thought about where we had been, our situation, feeling like we had been waiting, stuck.  Waiting for opportunity, for change.  I had heard myself time and time again saying, “I know the Lord has a plan.”  My voice was heavy, not hopeful.  But now the Lord was saying, “Run with Me!”  And somehow for a moment I was excited, maybe for the first time in a long while, I was confident that the Lord’s plan was good and thrilling and even fun!

Now change has come.  Not exactly in a way I thought it would.  But today has been a hard day.  A restless night, sickness, cancelled plans, but most of all, this worry in my head.  In the face of new circumstances, I struggle with mistrust.  Is it really a good plan?  Is there a plan at all?  And if so, could You let me in on it?  Apparently not, not today anyways.

But today is what I have.  Yesterday I shared Matthew 6:33 – “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”  The verse after says, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things.  Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”

Today, our needs are taken care of.  That and so much more!  There are cabinets and a fridge full of groceries.  We have a warm home and beds to rest in. We have hot, running water.  Other than this bug that has come and will soon go, there are four healthy people in our house.  My children are rowdy, energetic, playful, thoughtful, imaginative, and affectionate.  We have a full tank of gas in a car that gets us where we need to go.  I even have a Christmas tree with presents under it 🙂  And I have a God who is faithful.  I know this because even in my struggle of mistrust, He continues to speak to me, to pursue me.

  So perhaps this is what it means to run with the Lord – choosing not to worry about tomorrow, our security only in Him.  This is where rubber meets the road.  Seeking Him and only Him.  Perhaps circumstances only make us more aware of our dependence.  He has always covered today.  Always.